Tuesday, March 8, 2011

A Time to Mourn...

"I will turn their mourning into gladness;
I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow."
Jeremiah 31:13

My apologies to those of you who regularly follow my blog. The past few weeks have been a little difficult....a desert experience, I guess you would say. And I haven't had much to share.

It's been 9 weeks since the accident that killed my mother and my aunt. Part of me thinks I should be over this by now.  You see, my mom and aunt lived in Texas and I live in Washington. I didn't see them every day. They weren't a part of my everyday life; they were phone calls once a week. So, to other people around me, my day to day life here in Washington doesn't look any different...it doesn't look like anthying has changed. But my heart has. A dear friend reminded me yesterday that I didn't just lose a person in my life...I lost a relationship.

As I have spent the last few weeks trying to go back to life as usual, I'm really just going through the motions. I don't like that feeling. It's not fair to my family; it's not fair to my friends; it's not fair to me.

So, if you'll forgive me for this small pity party, I will take some time off from my Desert series to focus on some healing time. I will be taking a Grief class at church in the next few weeks. Ecclesiastes 3 says, "There is a time to mourn...". I guess I need to actually take that time before I try to get on with life "as usual".

I thank all of you who regularly visit here and support me. Your prayers are what held me up during that difficult week between the accident and the funerals. And I know many of you continue to pray for me and my sisters. We are grateful to you for all of your encouragement and continued prayers.

"I thank my God every time I remember you."
Philippians 1:3

Love you,

1 comment:

Cindy said...

Lena, I can relate to this. It was exactly the same when my mom passed away. She was in California; nothing in my daily life changed, but there was a huge hole in my heart. I like the part about not just losing a person, but you've lost a relationship. So true.

I'll keep you in my prayers.